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How to Think About America’s Immigration Policy As a Christian

How to Think About America’s Immigration Policy As a Christian

I saw it posted online by a friend: A twenty-something Syrian woman, fleeing the nightmare of war in her country, sold everything so she and her family could make it to a neighboring Arab country. Once there, because they are not allowed to work in this new land, her husband has gone out every single […]

When We Don’t Want the God of Love

When We Don’t Want the God of Love

I read it recently, from my friend. The one who was sexually abused from the age of three by her father. It was an open letter written on the day her father was getting out of prison, after having served just a few years, in spite of a lifetime of perpetuating physical, emotional, and spiritual […]

The Problem With Modern Liberalism For Christians

The Problem With Modern Liberalism For Christians

Against all odds, and contrary to what virtually every political pundit on both sides thought, Donald Trump won. He won, and the election revealed how completely polarized our country is. This most recent election indicated that America is guided by two fundamentally different views of how the world works, and Christians are weighing in passionately […]

You Can’t Be A Christian And Vote For…

You Can’t Be A Christian And Vote For…

If you’ve been on social media at all, you know that everyone is ABSOLUTELY SURE of how you must vote if you are a Christian. I have heard that you are not a Christian if you vote for the baby-killing, corrupt liar extraordinaire Clinton, and I have heard that you are not a Christian if […]

The Next Chapter I Haven’t Wanted

The Next Chapter I Haven’t Wanted

So far 2016 has not been kind. No, 2016 hasn’t resulted in a pregnancy (yes, I do realize that at 41 I should be long beyond even hoping for it). It has, however, brought the loss of two of my best friends within a three-week time span, whose husbands’ jobs moved them to two different […]

Grief 301: Scrapbooking and The Lord’s Next Plan For Me

Grief 301: Scrapbooking and The Lord’s Next Plan For Me

It is almost 2016, and it has been months since I have blogged. The past few months have been a slow, laborious process of doing grief work – but not so much over Dominic. I have realized that this past year the greatest portion of my grief has not been so much over the children […]

You Can’t Judge and Love at the Same Time?

You Can’t Judge and Love at the Same Time?

Anybody heard of Caitlyn Jenner? Of course you have, because it’s almost impossible to not see her, now. The world is in fervor over former Olympian Bruce Jenner now coming out as a transgender woman. Although personal reactions from people have been all over the board, the predominant cultural response to Caitlyn Jenner is approval, […]

How The Last 3 Years Have Changed Me

How The Last 3 Years Have Changed Me

It has been a month of tears. I’ve had just enough time to get past the 17th – the due date for the child I lost in miscarriage – to start emotionally preparing for the 31st. I can’t believe he would have been 3 years old. We would know if all that hair turned out […]

July and the Fulfiller of Desires

July and the Fulfiller of Desires

I hate July. July 31st was the day Dominic was born – the child I lost. Today, July 17th, was the day my most recent baby was supposed to be born – the one I lost in miscarriage. Instead of giving birth to the child for which I have longed, I am relegating the baby […]

Criticism and Compassion in the Duggar Sexual Abuse Debacle: How God Can Redeem This Mess

Criticism and Compassion in the Duggar Sexual Abuse Debacle: How God Can Redeem This Mess

You can’t possibly have missed it – the Duggar “sex scandal”, as the media is calling it. Articles have clogged every newsfeed about the Duggar debacle, ranging from enthusiastic support to vitriolic condemnation, in the wake of information becoming public that Josh Duggar sexually molested young girls (including his own sisters) when he was a […]

Love That the World Calls Hate

Love That the World Calls Hate

How can a Christian convey love and simultaneously live according to truth, in a world that deems the truth unloving? It’s a question that has reverberated in my life in so many ways. It is also a question that I believe will become more and more important for every Christian to answer in the days […]

Over the Hill, Not Empty-handed

Over the Hill, Not Empty-handed

I’ve passed the threshold. No, it’s not the “over the hill” mark, although it certainly is that, too. This birthday has marked a new place in my life that I never thought I’d reach – The age of 40 without any more children. Since Dominic, I’ve just known, somewhere deep, that I would have more […]

The Dirty S-Word of Easter

The Dirty S-Word of Easter

There is a dirty word in our culture – one that, if mentioned, will bring the “tolerance” police running, guns blazing. Just about anything can be said, nowadays, except this. Spend a few minutes online and you can find vociferous cultural defenses for how “cheating is wrong” is just an opinion, euthanasia is not only […]

On Turning 40

On Turning 40

I asked it, the question: What is the measure of a year? A birth, a death…pointing beyond the here And now, but now I ask again, wondering anew… This time, though different, moving through From one year to many, 40 to be exact Half a life or so, time for purpose to be intact.   […]

The Messy of Ministry

The Messy of Ministry

“Lord, please break my heart for the things that break yours.” It’s a prayer I have sometimes regretted praying. Because, more and more, He has answered it. And that has made life… Messy. Increasingly, as my life moves forward, I find myself burdened for people. There are just so many needs. So many people who […]

A Promise, A Blessing, or Neither?

A Promise, A Blessing, or Neither?

It has been haunting me, the question: “If I could get it wrong, after so much effort and time and energy and care, how can I ever hear His voice in my life?” And, then: “If I can’t hear His voice, how can I make it?” Living Without My Oxygen Hearing God’s voice was what […]

Self-Centered Sufferer

Self-Centered Sufferer

I am really self-centered. No matter how much I claim I love my Lord, no matter how much I seek Him and pray and read His Word, no matter how much I endeavor to serve and minister and share His truths… The truth is that I really love myself more. You know how I know? […]

Perspective

Perspective

The week prior to Christmas was a hard one. Yep, still here without a baby. And this miscarriage isn’t even completely over, yet. And, yep, it’s completely miserable just waiting for it to end, so I can move on. I’ve done a lot of not much but crying and searching. I’ve been through many days […]

The Sacrifice of the Christmas Promise

The Sacrifice of the Christmas Promise

How many Christmases, with the world focused on the baby who came into the world, am I going to be blogging about losing a baby? Ughhhhh. So I’ve been doing a whole lot of praying and listening and talking with God and a whole lot of processing and writing (well, actually, those are never mutually […]

Angry

Angry

You know all those stages of grief? Yeah, well I am fully, completely in the stage of ANGER.   It’s Different This Time I didn’t really get here, with Dominic. First of all, I never expected him to live – maybe that was God’s grace to me, I don’t know – but I didn’t have […]

The Blue Ridge Women’s Center After Knowing

The Blue Ridge Women’s Center After Knowing

I am bursting out of my skin with excitement.  There are times, early in the morning and in the evening, when I just lie in bed doing nothing but thinking about the reality that we are having more children, and talking to the Lord about it. Well, let’s be honest. It’s more like vacillating between […]

Losing, Again

Losing, Again

I was wrong. Devastatingly wrong. There is no baby – It is definitely a miscarriage. Remember that critical part of the Miraculous-Hear-Correctly-and-Obey Faith Building Plan, hearing correctly? Yeah, well, apparently I didn’t. And, instead, we seem to be on the Rebecca-is-Humbled plan. Not sure how faith-building this plan is, but it definitely makes it clear […]

The Miraculous Hear-Correctly-and-Obey Faith-Building Plan

The Miraculous Hear-Correctly-and-Obey Faith-Building Plan

The Lord had told me, over and over again, through this pregnancy, to trust Him. To hope in Him. To have faith that He is the Truth, not what I see. This has been a true battle – a war in my soul. To keep looking at mounting physical evidence and deny that its logical […]

Physical Proof? Or Proof Of His Presence?

Physical Proof? Or Proof Of His Presence?

Wanting Physical Proof   I have two weeks to wait for another ultrasound. Two weeks to find out: Am I going to receive the desire of my heart, or am I going to experience the second greatest heartbreak of my life? But, see, even those very questions – they put faith in where we all […]

It’s Not Good News

It’s Not Good News

I finally got into the doctor today – after 5 days of bleeding. If you’re going to start bleeding big time from your pregnancy, the day before the Thanksgiving holiday is not the day to do it. Just sayin’. I got an ultrasound, and the news wasn’t conclusive, but neither was it good. They were […]

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