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The Ways of the Lord are Right

The Ways of the Lord are Right

I’m just always amazed by how much the Lord speaks through scripture when I’m actually paying attention. I would wager that making me pay attention might be the biggest spiritual benefit for me from Dominic’s death. Recently I’ve been reading the book of Hosea. Yes, I referenced these verses in an earlier post, but Hosea […]

Even If He Does Not

Even If He Does Not

I love my Lord. And I know He works for good in everything. That doesn’t mean that I’m always happy with Him. Or, for that matter, that I accept gracefully whatever He has put before me. The honest truth is that even with what I’ve learned through Dominic – even with knowing that the Lord […]

What’s In a Name?

What’s In a Name?

What’s In a Name? What’s in a name? Well, when the Lord gets involved in it…a lot. We chose the name Dominic for our son, because it is a family name. It was fitting, because I’ve always loved the name Dominic (even before meeting my husband), and our son was to be the first boy […]

Being Able to Put the Baby Down

Being Able to Put the Baby Down

The Lord just keeps showing me ways He is healing me. And, of course, it happened most recently (again) with a baby. My therapy baby, to be exact. I got to keep him and his siblings – the first time I’d seen him in two weeks, due to a minor flood in our basement that […]

My Hope and My Future

My Hope and My Future

Some days are just harder than others, after you lose your baby. Losing My Hope and Future This past week, I had a few days that were particularly difficult. One was New Year’s Day. Something about facing the new year, without my baby, really hit me hard. I’m supposed to be looking so forward to […]

30 Things I Learned This Year That I Never Wanted to Learn

30 Things I Learned This Year That I Never Wanted to Learn

I can’t say that I’m sad to say goodbye to 2012. OK, yes, we did get to take the girls to Disney (something we’ve wanted to do since they were born), and my husband got a much better job. But then there was that “losing your only son” thing that kind of just dominated the […]

And a Sword Will Pierce Your Soul

And a Sword Will Pierce Your Soul

When most of us think of the Christmas story, we think of joy. The glory of Gabriel’s announcement, the miracle of the virgin birth, the fulfillment of aged prophecies and expectation. Christmas nativity scenes portray the beauty and wonder and peace of it all – even the angels proclaim to the shepherds “Peace on earth”. […]

Seeing God’s Glory in a Christmas Without a Baby

Seeing God’s Glory in a Christmas Without a Baby

It’s funny how grief works. You can be going along pretty well, moving forward and feeling relatively normal, and then, all of a sudden, WHAM! Grief hits again. I don’t know exactly what triggered it – spending time with my therapy baby, seeing other friends’ newborn adopted baby, getting news of friends’ baby’s terminal diagnosis, […]

So Much Emotion With Babies

So Much Emotion With Babies

I got to keep my therapy baby today. I call him that, because he’s the one that’s gotten me over the hump. The one that has moved me from being emotionally decimated every time I even saw an infant, to being able to enjoy holding one. Well, maybe not any infant, but I love to […]

Why I Write

Why I Write

My life has changed. July 31, 2012 is the day it happened – the day my son Dominic was born. After an uneventful pregnancy and beautiful home birth, our son was diagnosed, much to our surprise, with Spinal Muscular Atrophy – a degenerative, fatal disease which affects the body’s muscular system. The Lord gave us […]

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