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The Sacrifice of the Christmas Promise

The Sacrifice of the Christmas Promise

How many Christmases, with the world focused on the baby who came into the world, am I going to be blogging about losing a baby? Ughhhhh. So I’ve been doing a whole lot of praying and listening and talking with God and a whole lot of processing and writing (well, actually, those are never mutually […]

The Season of Joy and Living in Egypt

The Season of Joy and Living in Egypt

It is the season of joy. The Christ child has come, the divine become human, to bridge the chasm our God-rejection created. Holiness proffered by grace, atonement procured by suffering…hope secured for eternity. For me, personally, this season, the blessings abound. Time to read snuggled up with my children each day. A refrigerator stocked full […]

Where Is God In Sandy Hook?

Where Is God In Sandy Hook?

I heard about it from Facebook. Two posts from friends, lamenting with shock the horror of some children being killed in school. Amazing how in this day and age the news of horror unfolding can travel so quickly. And yet, no matter how you get it, horror is horror. The news of the murder of […]

What Happened After Christmas?

What Happened After Christmas?

Christmas is such a high. The gifts, the family, the food, the Savior – it’s the pinnacle of the year for many of us. No doubt, it was somewhat of a high for the cast of characters at the first Christmas, as well. Let’s see…angels, heavenly host singing, an immaculate conception, a birth that fulfilled […]

And a Sword Will Pierce Your Soul

And a Sword Will Pierce Your Soul

When most of us think of the Christmas story, we think of joy. The glory of Gabriel’s announcement, the miracle of the virgin birth, the fulfillment of aged prophecies and expectation. Christmas nativity scenes portray the beauty and wonder and peace of it all – even the angels proclaim to the shepherds “Peace on earth”. […]

Seeing God’s Glory in a Christmas Without a Baby

Seeing God’s Glory in a Christmas Without a Baby

It’s funny how grief works. You can be going along pretty well, moving forward and feeling relatively normal, and then, all of a sudden, WHAM! Grief hits again. I don’t know exactly what triggered it – spending time with my therapy baby, seeing other friends’ newborn adopted baby, getting news of friends’ baby’s terminal diagnosis, […]

Christmas Is All About a Baby

Christmas Is All About a Baby

The Christmas season is just so very much about a baby. You realize this when it’s your first Christmas without your baby. Yes, Christmas 2012 will be unlike any other – the first Christmas we celebrate as parents who have lost a child. And whereas each December has always been focused, in our family, on […]

So Much Emotion With Babies

So Much Emotion With Babies

I got to keep my therapy baby today. I call him that, because he’s the one that’s gotten me over the hump. The one that has moved me from being emotionally decimated every time I even saw an infant, to being able to enjoy holding one. Well, maybe not any infant, but I love to […]