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The Ways of the Lord are Right

The Ways of the Lord are Right

I’m just always amazed by how much the Lord speaks through scripture when I’m actually paying attention. I would wager that making me pay attention might be the biggest spiritual benefit for me from Dominic’s death.

Recently I’ve been reading the book of Hosea. Yes, I referenced these verses in an earlier post, but Hosea has been the Lord’s megaphone to me recently, so I’ve got some more thoughts. You know the saying, “It’s my party and I’ll cry if I want to?” Well, think of this as, “It’s my blog and I’ll write about the same verses twice if I want to.” 🙂

So…Hosea. This story of the Lord continually pursuing His people, personified by Hosea’s love for his unfaithful wife, is one I’ve needed to hear recently – to remind me of God’s phenomenal, all-encompassing love for us. Because no matter how much I know it in my head, my soul struggles to keep that reality before me. Grief over Dominic, concerns over having future children, and the tragedies I see in the lives of those around me buffet that knowledge all the time, like a second-string boxing fighter doing his best to knock down the reality of God’s love and goodness in my being. I need the armor of God to combat it.

One of the ways the Lord gives me armor, is by writing about the things He shows me. I don’t know, it’s kind of like if I just read the words He gives to me, they can slip out of my mind too easily when life’s punches begin. But if I write about them, they become more a part of me. Writing = internal armor, I guess. Not sure exactly how the equation works, but I’m not going to question it.

So I read Hosea, and I found some armor: (14:8-9):

I am like a green pine tree;
your fruitfulness comes from me.”

Who is wise? He will realize these things.
Who is discerning? He will understand them.
The ways of the Lord are right;
the righteous walk in them,
but the rebellious stumble in them.

My fruitfulness comes from the Lord.

The ways of the Lord are right.

Yep, I needed the reminder. Because, to be honest, I’ve been feeling lately like my fruitfulness comes from getting what I want. And that my ways (and timing) are right. I want more children. And I want them now. And I’ve had many prayers where I have explained to God why my life will be much more fruitful if He will just allow me to have more healthy children. You know, raising them up to be servants for Him and all that. The Lord needs all of my reasons, ya know, in order to be able to make a good decision for me.

And, of course, if He doesn’t, ahem, align His ways with my own desires, then I think His ways are not right.

Because, in the great universe put together out of nothing by the Creator God, it’s all about me.

The fallacy of it all seems so obvious when I write it, but when I live it – that’s exactly how I behave. As if I am all-knowing and all-good, and if God would just go along with my plan then the world would be just right. Just right for me, that is.

Sometimes, honestly, I just really wish it were all about me. That sure would make life easier. But God isn’t content with just making our lives easier. He wants to make them better.

So I needed Hosea’s reminder that my fruitfulness comes, not from having another baby or getting whatever it is that I want from God. My fruitfulness comes from Him. And it comes from Him because the ways of the Lord are always right. He is not so small as to just focus on me, or to just give me my selfish, small-minded desires. He wants to give me, and everyone else in this world, much greater than any momentary yearning. He wants to give us all the essence of who He is – love, peace, hope, goodness, beauty, justice, truth, joy. And we cannot get Him and stay our selfish selves at the same time.

As C. S. Lewis wrote, in The Weight of Glory:

“If we consider the unblushing promises of reward and the staggering nature of the rewards promised in the Gospels, it would seem that Our Lord finds our desire not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, we are like ignorant children who want to continue making mud pies in a slum because we cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a vacation at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.”

My fruitfulness comes from Him. And the ways of the Lord are right. And that means, baby or no baby, if I have Him, I have all I need.

I don’t always feel like that’s true. But one day, when the curse of sin this world is under has been overcome, I will get to feel it. I’ll get to live in His fruitfulness, and I will get to experience just how right His ways truly are.

I can’t wait for that day.

One Response to “The Ways of the Lord are Right”

  1. Very insightful, very well written and I really enjoyed reading it!!!!!!

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